Tuesday, October 14, 2014

You could cut glass with those things...

Not that I'm obsessed with Angie or anything...

But Hollywood has called her one of the most beautiful people alive, and I happen to agree. And if you saw her in Maleficent, you know that post-mastectomy and reconstruction, she looks as hot as ever.

Sometimes I start to worry about the physical aftermath of all of this. I mean, it's not like my physical appearance is tied to my career. I think it was pretty gutsy of Angelina to go public with her journey, because she really didn't have to. Mastectomy, the reconstruction process... totally un-hot. The whole topic is probably not so good for public relations when your job is to look amazing. But the opportunity to speak up about BRCA mutations and hereditary cancer totally outweighed any reason for her to keep it quiet. So what if there would be critics? I can say that I certainly learned more about hereditary breast cancer after Angelina Jolie went public with her own journey.

Of course, the majority of my knowledge came after it became personally relevant.  But if my own speaking up here in this blog leads to even one person learning something about the BRCA mutations, than it will be worth it to me.

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So I had a bit of a melt down one night last weekend after coming in from the cold. It suddenly occurred to me that the physical response to the cold that to we come to expect from our natural anatomy, well, it just won't happen any more. The 'responsive' parts will go with the rest of it all. That's just kind of creepy.

Reconstruction will take several months. I wonder what it will look like. I wonder if I will want to look? Will I let anyone else see?

I am not a movie star and no one will be plastering my face (or any other part of me) on to the cover of any magazine. I know that the people who love me will continue to do so, even after they are off of my chest. I just wonder if I will be so forgiving and loving to myself. How long until I will love to look at me again?


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