Wednesday, December 12, 2018

TOMORROW!

Like many, I first heard about the BRCA “Breast Cancer gene” when Angelina Jolie used the New York Times to announce her decision to have a bilateral prophylactic mastectomy after she was genetically identified as a carrier of the BRCA gene mutation. She told the world that she’d had her own breasts removed because they were ticking time bombs for breast cancer. 



So maybe some of the world mourned Angie’s boobs for a minute, but this was the right choice for her. And man, did you see her in Maleficent a couple years later? Her plastic surgeon got it right!!!! 

But I digress. 

Angie’s announcement started a world-wide conversation about genetic testing. 

How much knowledge is TOO much knowledge?
Are we playing God with all of this?
And what would you do?

But more importantly, women around the world became empowered with the knowledge that they have options! We can have genetic testing and make informed choices about our bodies to reduce our risk of getting some types of cancer. 

Then it got personal. When breast cancer crashed into our lives for the second time, my mom’s physician recommended genetic testing. Mom tested positive for the BRCA mutation, and then I tested positive as well. Without hesitation, I took the radical route and chose the prophylactic mastectomy. The adventures (and misadventures) of that journey haven been chronicled in this blog.

Not everyone who tests positive for the BRCA mutations opts for the radical surgical options. A BRCA positive diagnosis can still be empowering without surgery because it allows for insurances to cover more frequent mammograms and additional cancer screenings. Early diagnosis is key to surviving breast cancer!

The lesser-known risk that comes with a BRCA mutation is an elevated chance of getting ovarian cancer. The average woman has about a 2% chance of getting ovarian cancer in her life. Someone with a BRCA mutation has something more along the lines of a 40-60% lifetime chance of getting ovarian cancer! And ovarian cancer is ugly and hard to treat. Early detection drastically increases the survival rate, but ovarian cancer is often detected late, at a point when successful treatment options are limited. 

The answer? Take out the ovaries, too! That’s the procedure I will have tomorrow. I am opting for a slightly lesser invasive surgery than originally planned. We’re only removing some of the lady-plumbing, but it will get rid of the hormone-generating cancer-makers that the ovaries can be. 

As a part of the procedure, I am also having some other annoying growths removed that have been wreaking havoc on my system. They have been biopsied and are benign, but will thankfully be evicted along with the ovaries. 

I am not worried about the procedure. It’s outpatient, it’s laparoscopic. It will be fine. I’ll be down for just a couple weeks. I am also not worried about losing my eggs, and thus the ability to have any more biological babies. That ship has SAILED and I am very content with the children I have in my life already. 

I am, however, TERRIFIED of the symptoms that will come after the surgery, the symptoms that come along with surgical menopause. Normally, a woman’s estrogen tapers off gradually. Removing the ovaries removes the estrogen COLD TURKEY! 

BRCA-informed doctors have mixed opinions about oral estrogen and other hormone replacement therapies. Why put estrogen back in your system when the goal of surgery was to remove the cancer-causing organs and the hormones they produce? We're going to try and figure out what makes the most sense for me.

Without ovaries and their estrogen, it’s an instant trip to old-ladyville. Hot flashes and mood swings are nearly guaranteed, as well as other other unpleasant things like loss of libido and depression. 

YAAAAAAAASSSSSS! Par-tay time! 

(In case you missed it, that was me trying to pretend to be excited about all of this.) 

Snark aside, I am so incredibly thankful that I can face my elevated risk of cancer empowered. I am grateful to have informed, forward-thinking doctors who support and educate me on this journey. I have so much gratitude! I know that while my family will have to take care of me now for a couple weeks, (and then deal with my mood swings for a few months after!) they WON’T have to care for me through chemo and radiation and all of the scariness that comes with breast and ovarian cancer. 

Tomorrow morning, 11AM. Please send positive juju in whatever form you believe in sharing it. Low-sugar desserts and Netflix recommendations will also be greatly appreciated ;) 

Do you know your risk of hereditary cancer? The community and information at FORCE, www.facingourrisk.org, has been an incredible resource! Please don’t hesitate to chat me up if you would like more information. 


Thursday, November 8, 2018

Plan? Plan? Who's got a plan?

It’s been over four years since I first started this blog to document my BRCA journey. Updates have become few and far between, mostly because there hasn’t been a ton to share. 

I spent the first two-thirds of 2018 looking forward to December, when I would be able to finally get these ridiculous, awful fake boobs OFF of my chest. 

I am SO TIRED of shirts being tight, and tired of buttons popping open. Any time I wear something with even a slight scoop neck or v-neck, I am paranoid about showing cleavage and looking inappropriate. And it’s not just a physical/superficial/appearance issue. Because of the weight of the implants, I don’t sleep well if I don’t have a mountain of pillows to prop me up. My shoulders always hurt.

I didn’t want implants this big. And I have said numerous time that if it came down to keeping THESE boobs, or going back to the post-mastectomy flat chest of nothing, I’d choose flat in a heartbeat.

I had a consultation with the plastic surgeon in September, and unfortunately it was determined that I won’t be having reconstruction this year, either. Complications, shifting priorities, advice and pressure from multiple doctors, questionable growths with thankfully clean biopsies - it’s all helped determine that now is STILL not the time.




Carrying the BRCA gene mutation means an elevated risk of breast cancer, but it also means a high risk for ovarian cancer as well. My doctors would like me to have my ovaries removed before I have my boobs fixed. So instead of a breast reconstruction in December, I am scheduled to have a hysterectomy (removal of the uterus) and an oophorectomy (removal of the ovaries.)

These are fairly standard procedures with few risks, but it will involve some down time. It will also come with some unpleasant side effects. Most women receive hormone therapy after this surgery to help with the symptoms of surgical menopause, but because the cancer I am at most risk for is hormone induced, I won’t be able to take the hormones to help. What I have to look forward to:

- Mood swings
- Depression
- Night sweats
- Hot flashes
- Dryness. Everywhere.
- Loss of libido
- Forgetfulness 
- Fatigue


Wahoo!


It’s difficult to have a good attitude about any of this, but I'm trying.

I remain incredibly thankful to have the knowledge of my elevated risk for these types of cancer, and I am thankful for the preventative medical options I have. I don’t regret my decision to take action to significantly reduce my risk of having breast cancer.

I just really want it all to be over.